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From that w hite marriage morning o f our y o u th D o w n to this dreadful h ou r: I see y o u r face L it w ith the lovelight o f the h on eym oon ; I hear y o u r voice, that lingered on m y name A s if it loved each le tte r; and I feel T h e clinging o f y o u r arms about m y form . Y o u r kisses on m y cheek and long to break T h e anguish o f such memories w ith tears. B u t cannot w e e p ; the fountain has run d ry . ^ ^ e w ere so you n g, so happy, and so fu ll O f keen sw eet io y o f life. I had no w ish O u tsid e y o u r pleasure; and y o u loved me so T h a t w hen 1 sometimes felt a w om an s need F o r more serene expression o f man s love (T h e need o f rest in calm affection s hay A n d not sail ever on the storm y m ain). Y e t w ou ld I rouse m yself to y o u r desire; M e e t ardent kiss w i tk k issesju st as w a r m ; S o nothing I could give should he denied. A n d then our children came. D eep m m y soul. From the first hour o f conscious m otherhood, I kn ew I should conserve m yself fo r this M o s t h o ly o ffic e ; k n ew G o d meant it so. Y e t even then, I field y o u r wishes fir s t ; A n d b y m y double duties lost the bloom A n d freshness o f m y b e a u ty ; and beheld A look o f disapproval m y o u r eyes. H i i&rjmf. F R O M T H E P A $ T . L jT ^ ' lilt k°x that holds $ie treasures M | §§ W girlhood’s long ago, X have found, where once X hid it, . / • jut the garret quaint and low. fheh my eyes were brighter, clearer, ' Hot a furrow on my brow, Oil my hair the sunshine glittered, Where the snows have fallen now. B u t w ith the coming o f ou r precious ckilcT T k e lo v e rs smile, tinged w ith the fath ers . n d e, R etu rn ed again; and helped to make me st'o ng; A n d life w as very sw eet fo r both of us. A n o th e r , and anotker k irtk , and tw ice T k e little w h ite hearse paused beside our door A n d took a w a y some portion of m y y o u t i W i t h m y sw eet babies. A t the first yoi* seemed T o su ffer W l tk me, standing v e ry n ear; B u t w hen I w ep t too long, y o u turned aw ay. A n d I w as hurt, not realizing then M y grief w as selfish. 1 could see the ch* nge W k ick m otkerkood and sorrow made in m e ; A nd w hen I saw the change that came tc y o u . S a w h o w y o u r eyes looked past me w hen y o u talked. A n d w hen I missed the love tone from y o u r voice, I did that foolish thing w eak w om en do. Com plained and cried,* accused y o u o f neglect. A n d made m yself obnoxious in y o u r sight. A nd often, after y o u had left m y side. A lo n e I stood before m y m irror, mad W i t h anger at m y pallid cheeks, m y dull U n ligh ted eyes, m y shrunken m other-breasts, A nd w ep t, and w c l * «r»d faded more and more. F lo w could I hope to w in hack w a n d e n rg love, A nd make n ew flames m dying embers Lap, B y such ungracious m eans? A nd then She came. Firm bosom ed, round o f cheek, w ith such young eyes, A nd all the w a y s o f y o u th . I w h o hau died A thousand deaths, in w aiting the return O f that old 1 ove look to y o u r face once more. D ie d y e t again and w en t straight into hell W h e n I beheld it come at her approach. M y G o d , m y G o d , h o w have I borne it a l l ! Y e t s m .e she had the pow er to make that look T h e p ow er to sweep the ashes from y o u r heart O f b u rn ed -o u t love o f me, and light new fires, 0 ne thing remained fo r m c ~ to let you go. 1 had no w ish to keep the em pty frame From w h ich the priceless picture had been w renched. N o r do I blame y o u ; it w as not y o u r i i u l t : Y o u gave me all that m ost men can give lov e O f y o u th , o f beau ty, and o f passion; and I gave y o u full retu rn ; m y w om anhooo M a tc h e d w ell y o u r manhood. Y e t hau y o u grow n ill. O r old, and unattractive from some cai se, (Less close than w as m y service unto y *u) I should have clung the tighter to y o u , dear; A n d loved y o u , loved y o u , loved y o u more. m ore am I g row so w e a ry thinking o f these th u ^ s ; D a y m , day o u t ; and half the a w fu l n gkts. TO Y KB. ? bid the• wakiiig| world good morning ; To seaayr tahro;o d night w?ietf evening drapit the T o tod ’w ith brain andVhand for gold and honor, Fadre asarkthe . of those beside the household Well—I’ll lift the lid, recalling Dreams, how foolish, yet how fair! Ah! there lies my ring—the token Of love’s glory and dispair. 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