Interview with Dorothy (Day) Ciarlo, August 18, 2005

Nevada Test Site Oral History Project University of Nevada, Las Vegas Interview with Dorothy Ciarlo August 18, 2005 Boulder, Colorado Interview Conducted By Suzanne Becker © 2007 by UNLV Libraries Oral history is a method of collecting historical information through recorded interviews conducted by an interviewer/ researcher with an interviewee/ narrator who possesses firsthand knowledge of historically significant events. The goal is to create an archive which adds relevant material to the existing historical record. Oral history recordings and transcripts are primary source material and do not represent the final, verified, or complete narrative of the events under discussion. Rather, oral history is a spoken remembrance or dialogue, reflecting the interviewee’s memories, points of view and personal opinions about events in response to the interviewer’s specific questions. Oral history interviews document each interviewee’s personal engagement with the history in question. 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UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 1 Interview with Dorothy Ciarlo August 18, 2005 Conducted by Suzanne Becker Table of Contents Introduction: born Little Rock, AR ( 1933), family background, childhood, memories of segregation, the Great Depression, and the atomic bomb, education ( Swarthmore College, 1951- 1955) 1 Consciousness of the Cold War era, involvement in college pacifist movement McCarthy- era protest 7 Education and feminist, gender, and race issues at Swarthmore College 8 Life in New York City and work with pacifist organizations 12 Graduate school ( clinical psychology, University of Chicago), work with Nonviolent Action Against Nuclear Weapons protest at the NTS 14 Scheduling of protest to coincide with August 6, 1957, 12th anniversary of Hiroshima bombing ( Stokes test, August 7, 1957 16 How unusual this kind of social protest was at the time and friend’s concerns about her activism’s impact on her future 17 Remembrances of activities in Las Vegas during the week before actual protest 19 Recollections of protest at the NTS during Stokes 20 Contrasts 1957 protesters with later groups and reflects on her sense of the vulnerability of human beings in the face of nuclear weapons 26 Conflicts re: attending graduate school vs. becoming social activist 27 Political activism in Chicago, Ph. 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( University of Chicago, 1960), clinical internship and move to Boston ( 1961) 29 Marriage to James Ciarlo ( 1963), move to Middletown, CT and work as research associate ( Yale University), move to Ann Arbor, MI ( 1965) and work for Student Counseling Service ( University of Michigan), move to Denver, CO ( 1968) and work for Adams County Mental Health Center ( ca. 1969- 1976) and another community mental health center ( ca. 1976- 1978), enters private practice, children 30 Involvement with oral history project, Rocky Flats Plant, Denver, CO ( 1998- present) 32 Involvement in antinuclear movement, Denver, CO ( 1980s), participation in encirclement of Rocky Flats ( 1983) and Colorado Coalition for the Prevention of Nuclear War 38 Participation of husband James Ciarlo in protest at NTS 40 Albert Bigelow’s Pacific antinuclear protest inspires Greenpeace 41 History of Quakers and pacifist movement 42 History of NDE and protest at the NTS 44 Conclusion: protest in the fifties, sixties, and seventies 45 UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 1 Interview with Dorothy Ciarlo August 18, 2005 in Boulder, Colorado Conducted by Suzanne Becker [ 00: 00: 00] Begin Track 2, Disc 1. Suzanne Becker: If you’d begin with where you’re from and when you were born. Dorothy Ciarlo: I grew up in Little Rock, Arkansas, and I was born in 1933, the depths of the Depression, and my parents weren’t Southerners. My father had gone there as a professor at the medical school in the biochemistry department. I say that because I never really considered myself a Southerner even though I spent my entire childhood there. So you grew up in Little Rock. Yes. And that was the time of segregation. It was a big deal for me personally. How so? Well, because it was two separate school systems and I saw black kids being harassed on a daily basis, and for whatever reason I reacted very negatively to that. And I always felt somewhat estranged in Little Rock. It just didn’t feel like a place that I was comfortable with. And that was probably made more so because we spent our summers out here in Colorado, and so I had a different— Were your parents originally from Colorado? They were actually from the Northwest, but I think they couldn’t get that far [ laughing]. We drove for three days and that was as far as they could get. And you just spent the summers here. Yes. In the Boulder area? Actually near Estes Park on the YMCA campgrounds there. UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 2 That’s beautiful! Yes. And my father built a little cabin there which we still have. Really. Is it still there? We still use it. I spent a lot of time up in that area. Oh, have you? Yes, I love it. So that’s really neat. If you could talk about a little bit more what it was like growing up, particularly in the South with segregation and during the Depression. You were obviously aware of segregation. Were you aware of the Depression era as well? You were fairly young. Only tangentially. Looking back I can see it was more that everybody was poor, and I really didn’t have much contact with people who were unemployed. And I think by the time I have a good memory [ of it], the Second World War was starting and the people were employed. But I do remember that my parents always used to say that I was born in the year my father didn’t get paid. I think the Arkansas government, the government employees didn’t— they got paid in scrip rather than money. And your father was a professor? He was a professor. At the University of Arkansas. Yes. He was at the medical school, so he trained doctors. What was his name? UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 3 His name was Paul Day, and he did research, so I grew up having a belief in science and that kind of thing. And I went to school in Little Rock throughout and then, as I say, we came out here in the summers and that gave me a little different perspective. Yes, it was different than being in Little Rock. Right. Yeah. What was your mother’s name? Her name was Mildred Garrett Day. And was she employed? She was not. She had, I guess you would say, a health problem. Something happened, it’s not clear to me what, when I was actually very young. She was in bed till I was six or seven, and after that she was kind of semi- invalid. I now think it was more psychological, eventually. Who knows what it was originally? Actually I always think of coming out here, my mother seemed to be healthier than in Little Rock, so I look back on it now and that’s kind of interesting. Makes you think. Now you mentioned that in school you sensed segregation and [ 00: 05: 00] it was something that made you feel uncomfortable?. Did you grow up in a fairly politically conscious family? Well, I wouldn’t say politically conscious, but humanitarian. My dad did some what I think were rather courageous things. They don’t seem like that much now, but he was on the board of a visiting nurses’ association that gave care to African Americans, and that was real unusual. And because my mother was ill, we had an African American young woman that took care of me when I was very little and did housework and helped. And she couldn’t go in the public library, and so he would go get her books for school from the library. Those things were examples to me UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 4 of a different way of— I think both of my parents were very uncomfortable with the racism and with segregation. I would imagine, coming from the Northwest. Whereabouts did they come from? My father grew up in Oregon, mainly, and then moved to Washington, and my mother grew up mainly in Washington, different little towns there. So I would imagine that there’s quite a contrast. Yeah. And of course in Little Rock in the South at that time, people had lived there forever. It was a very isolated kind of place. It’s so different since Clinton has become president. The whole state is viewed differently. But back then, it was pretty parochial and if you hadn’t lived there all your life, you were a Yankee and that wasn’t a good thing to be. So there was definitely an outsider status. Oh, very strongly, very strongly, yes. And you went to grade school and high school there? Yes, I did. Did you go to the university? I didn’t. I wanted out and I had an older sister and she went to college out of state, to a liberal arts school in Ohio. I considered going there and then I decided I wanted to branch out into something really different, so I ended up going to Swarthmore College in Pennsylvania, which was a Quaker school and kind of plunged me into a very, very different environment. It was rough. I bet. What was that like? How did the environment—? In some ways it was wonderful because I guess one of the things that I really disliked about Little Rock at that time, or the South— that part of the South— was a kind of anti- intellectualism UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 5 and no curiosity. It was unacceptable to have curiosity about things. And of course Swarthmore was the opposite. People there, many of them, had come from very privileged backgrounds and were very well prepared; I was horribly prepared. But it was still very exciting, and I’m sure I was formed by that. What year was this that you started? I started in 1951. I might just say, before that, relating to the Nevada Test Site [ NTS] and my experiences there, for whatever reason, August 6, 1945, the atomic— I was going to ask you about that. I remember it very clearly. You do. Yes. And I talk to other people exactly my age and they don’t have any recollection of it. Because you were twelve or so? I was eleven or twelve. I think I was eleven. You were young. Yes, and I remember hearing about it on the radio and feeling this sense of horror. And I think they described [ it], because I have heard recollections, I’ve heard people much more recently say that when they did the test before they actually dropped the bomb in Hiroshima, that there were [ 00: 10: 00] people many, many miles away who saw something. What I remember hearing on the radio is that a blind woman a hundred miles away saw a flash. Now its funny because other people have mentioned that and I don’t know if that is a true story or an urban legend. I was speaking to somebody else who was driving through that area on her way to college when they had tested that and had later heard that story. Isn’t that interesting. UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 6 So I’ve read two different things and I’ve always been curious. Yes. Well, I’m sure they would have been saying that on the radio right around that time, and where they got it. But I think of course they were using it to say this is bigger, you know. But for some reason it horrified me. I suppose you probably remember where you were when you heard it. My recollection is that I was in our cabin, and that would make sense because that’s where the radio was. Of course, that was before TV. And I don’t remember talking with anyone about it. Do you remember your parents having a reaction? I really don’t. But you as a child, when they were describing it, just thought it was fairly horrific. Yes. Yes. And I had always been kind of upset by the whole war thing and the stories about the cruelty and the destruction. So I was already involved in that sense. Now did that particularly lead you to— I mean were you a politically active kid or teenager? I wasn’t. In the South at that time, the Republicans were the liberals. It’s horrifying to think, but I remember I went to Swarthmore and I thought I was a Republican because [ of that]. I quickly learned that things were different. Yes. That must’ve been a very different experience. So political in the sense of electoral politics, I wasn’t at all, but I think in terms of being aware of things. I remember that I tried to do a few things in the Church with regard to race relations and didn’t get anywhere. And then I remember in a history, I think it was an American history course, I did a paper on the development of the hydrogen bomb. It was just in process. And that really affected me. I was horrified. I thought we should’ve learned. So I remember doing that and feeling very upset about that. UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 7 Do you recall if any of your peers were conscious or having any conscious thoughts about this? I really felt quite alienated in that sense. I mean I had friends but— I do remember one fellow that was quite bright and I thought I had something in common with him intellectually; but I remember him joking around about Eleanor Roosevelt and making fun of her, and it was really very upsetting to me. So I mainly just kept my mouth shut. Now you entered college at the height of the Cold War and actually the year that the test site was, I guess if you want to call it, activated. Aha. I didn’t even know that. In 1951. Yes, that’s about when the test site started up. And I’m just wondering if you were at all conscious of this Cold War era that had been going on or was taking effect. I was. What I think about the strongest at that time, well, I was aware that nuclear weapons were continuing, were taking off, and that was upsetting to me. And I decided from the moment I got to college, or even maybe before, that I was a pacifist. I didn’t know what a [ 00: 15: 00] pacifist was, but I decided I was a pacifist. So I got involved in a little peace committee at the college. We didn’t do much but— Did you do things on campus? Yes. And I think we had speakers. It got me in touch with other likeminded students, which was very, very good. It must have been very reassuring. Yes. Yes. And just the fact that there were people who believed— that just felt very supportive to me. Yes. Definitely. UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 8 But I was going to say something else. Well— I did then decide to major in psychology and decided I would be a psychologist. So I did that. Oh, I know the other thing that I was going to say. You asked the effect of the Cold War. What I remember from my college years was the effect of the [ Senator Joseph] McCarthy, anticom [ anticommunism] and the McCarthy era. That was a really big, big thing in those years. I remember trying to collect money for the ACLU [ American Civil Liberties Union] and having students turn me down at Swarthmore because they were afraid that the ACLU was considered to be a, quote, “ Communist group,” and things like that. There was that cloud over everything. That’s interesting. A little bit of that going on today. Yes. A lot of parallels. It’s interesting to find it that prevalent on a college campus, I guess. I think it was throughout the whole society at that time, insidiously. That’s a good word for it. Insidious. I guess I just have to ask you, out of curiosity, women going to college at that particular juncture in time was not as common, obviously, as it is now. Did you have any qualms about it or was it ever an issue for you? As you can probably figure out, I wasn’t very happy in Little Rock, although I never thought of it in terms of women versus men at that time. I think I saw my route out as intellectual achievement, and I had the example of my father who’d grown up in a working- class family and put himself through graduate school, and education was certainly stressed in my family. So I never even thought that women— I knew that there was, “ women weren’t supposed to achieve,” but I associated it with being in the South. When those of us who were going to college talked about it, I remember some of the other girls saying it’s OK for the guys to go to eastern schools, UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 9 but not the girls. And I didn’t like that at all. And that didn’t affect me. Well, it affected me in the sense that I wanted to go to an eastern school. I didn’t really think much about what we would now call feminist issues then, although I know I did feel very— I really reacted strongly to the kinds of rules they had for girls going to college. You had to be in the dorm, and you had to have your date escort you to the front porch, and I sort of quietly rebelled [ laughing]. I lived in a particular part with my roommate my senior year where you could manage to sneak in without signing in or out, [ 00: 20: 00] so I never signed out and never signed in. I remember one of the other sort of rule- following girls said, You never seem to go out. Because you were never signed in or out. Right. Good ploy. Much, much later I have thought about that in very different ways. But at that time I really didn’t—. Well, it wasn’t something that was, I think, even talked about or recognized, but obviously it’s something where you realized that there was a difference. Yes. I also remember I didn’t let the boys pay for me for dates. I think I really felt like if they paid, I had to kiss them whether I wanted to or not. And I don’t remember talking with anyone else about that at that particular time. Later, I did, as times changed. Right. In hindsight. Yes You majored in psychology. Did you feel any differences in the classrooms or in coursework in terms of dealing with people, professors? UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 10 I think Swarthmore was a pretty unique place in a lot of ways, because I didn’t really think much about male- female issues. I thought a lot about race issues, because I had been so influenced by that. I tried to date every African American in the school, and there weren’t many of them. So there was that kind of curiosity. A lot of my friends were foreign students. Partly that was because my roommate was from Japan, and I think that heightened my awareness of the Hiroshima experience. I was going to say, having such a clear a memory of it and then having that connection. Was that something that she was aware of? She was. I don’t remember us having long conversations about it. You’re probably familiar with the “ Hiroshima Maidens.” It must’ve been somewhere in the fifties, [ May 1955], that some philanthropist in this country [ Norman Cousins] brought a group of disfigured young women who had gone through the Hiroshima bomb experience. I haven’t actually heard about that. Well, they brought them over for surgery so that their appearance could be improved and they wouldn’t have such a hard time becoming wives. And my roommate was a host. They came to visit the school briefly and I remember her talking about that. I don’t remember actually seeing them. That’s really interesting. I had not heard about that. I think that— the Hiroshima Maidens it was called— influenced a lot of people who had direct contact. It was sort of like that direct visual experience. Sure. It’s one thing to hear it on a radio and it’s so far away, but when it’s tangible or visible, it���s something different. Yes. UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 11 OK, so obviously this is something that you’ve been conscious of. You’re conscious of segregation. What was the climate like on the campus of Swarthmore in terms of race relations at that point? It was very much a northern liberal school. If anything, people might’ve gone overboard in terms of liberal white guilt, I think you would call it. So it was totally different from my experience in Little Rock, which I expected. I mean that wasn’t a surprise to me. I think I personally had to go through some experiences; just like I remember the first time I held hands [ 00: 25: 00] with an African American, it was a very strange experience. And that seems so odd now but the segregation, it just scarred people in ways that it’s hard to understand now. But I grew out of that very quickly. In fact, I fell madly in love with one of the African American students and had a brief relationship with him, and that affected my life, really, in a lot of ways. In terms of? Well, actually partly because he was also a pacifist at that time. I doubt that he still is. So we had this unique bond. And kind of interesting psychologically, I think. In a sense it was moving out of my previous experience and solidifying my pacifism. I had already felt, before I went to Swarthmore, that I was a pacifist, but this was the icing on the cake. Finding likeminded people really helps reinforce and shape those ideas. Were you involved with the civil rights movement? Really by the time the civil rights movement got really active, I was in graduate school and involved in doing that, so I wasn’t involved directly. I continued to have black friends and be interested and give money and things like that, but I wasn’t really active. I kind of stayed away from it because I felt like my feelings were so strong that I couldn’t be very useful in this messy sort of way. UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 12 Well, I think, passion on any level for a topic is good. So the obvious question is you graduated in 1955? Fifty- five. OK, and from there did you go right to graduate school? I took a year off and lived in New York with a couple of friends and worked as a secretary, which drove me to graduate school. Where in New York did you live? It was near Greenwich Village. Oh, wow, what a time to be there. Yes. And one of my roommates worked for the American Friends Service Committee in New York City, and through her and some natural affiliations I had, I was peripherally, you might say, involved with the Quakers. And there were several well- known pacifists that in pacifist circles were big deals. One of them was a man by the name of A. J. Muste. I think he founded this organization called the Fellowship of Reconciliation. I’m not sure of that. [ He was not a founder but worked with the organization for many years]. I’ve definitely heard of it. And there was another man by the name of Bayard Rustin. He was African American and just an astonishingly brilliant and charismatic man. And he was a Quaker. At that time, the pacifists and the Quakers that worked in the American Friends Service Committee circle tended to be middle- aged, homely white men— not homely, very good people but not very exciting, and Bayard Rustin was very exciting. I read a biography of him [ 00: 30: 00] recently which was really excellent, and it explained his connection with the peace movement and then the civil rights UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 13 movement. It was called Lost Prophet. I just saw recently that they’re going to do a PBS [ Public Broadcasting System] program on him [ Brother Outsider], which I think will be fascinating. I have not heard of him. I definitely need to look him up. I think so. What fascinates me about him is that, well, I knew him at a time [ when] I was young and impressionable, but he was the only black person among the peace people. He became very committed to nonviolence and read, as did the other Quakers, about Gandhi and the strategy of nonviolence as well as the morality of it, so they became real students of nonviolent as a social action technique. And then, this is aside from me but Bayard Rustin was tangentially involved, I think, in planning the Nevada Test Site action. He also, shortly after that, in ’ 56, started working with Martin Luther King and became very influential in, as I understand it, convincing Martin Luther King to adopt the nonviolence as a strategy. When you read about nonviolence principals, often the two people that you do read about are Gandhi and then Martin Luther King, so that’s really interesting. Yes. And this is kind of the behind- the- scenes person. Yeah, that’s amazing. And you were part of that. That’s really quite amazing. Well, it’s interesting because I knew those people and of course they hardly knew me; I was just a young person, but they were very influential. I bet. So what types of issues were being focused on at that particular juncture? Well, at that point I think I was more aware of the Cold War and what was going on, the buildup of weapons and the things that were being rationalized on the basis of anticommunism and that whole way of looking at things. So then in my personal life, I moved to graduate school. Where did you go to graduate school? UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 14 University of Chicago. I started the graduate program in psychology and was really kind of conflicted because I was in the psychology program, which was very academic and not at all social psychology. I would have been very happy as a social psychologist, but I didn’t know anything about it and Chicago didn’t really have an active program. So I just decided to become a clinical psychologist. I was interested in [ that] very much, but I also felt a little sad to give up some of the social- issue kind of involvement. So I think that’s really what motivated me to take the summer job with this protest at the test site. I had been at Chicago one year and I had the summer off and I just wanted to do something different. I knew there was a long road ahead in terms of graduate school and professional training, so I wanted to do something different before I plunged into that. And so what type of job? How did this opportunity come about? Well, I can’t remember how I got the job but I know I would��ve been slightly known when they were looking for a secretary for the project. OK. And what project was—? They called it Nonviolent Action Against Nuclear Weapons. That was [ 00: 35: 00] both the name of the project and the, I think they called it an ad hoc committee of planners. What year was this? That was 1957. The action took place on the test site in August, but they started planning it, I think, in May, and I was hired in June, first of June probably. Somewhere around in there. As I say, I don’t remember how I got the job but it was easy for me to go back to New York and live in the same place that I had lived in. So basically you’d heard about it through connections, groups that you were involved in, networking kind of stuff? UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 15 Probably. Yes. And the man who actually hired me was the man that was directing the project. His name was Lawrence Scott. He’s described a little bit in some of the newspaper clippings that I have. I had not known him with this sort of group of pacifists that I had been involved with. I always had the impression at the time that the people who were the inspiration for this project were A. J. Muste and Bayard Rustin and some of the other people that worked with them. These older Quakers and people that were very disturbed about nuclear testing, not only nuclear weapons but nuclear testing, and felt like something dramatic had to be done to make people aware of what was really going on. And obviously at this point you were aware of the Nevada Test Site? Yes. Yes. And the atmospheric testing was getting some publicity even that early, and people were worried about the dangers of it. So I think they planned this knowing that there was a level of anxiety in the general population that could be tapped as a way to bring attention to the larger issue of nuclear weapons. I know that’s why they decided to go to the test site. My recollection is that there had never been any protests at the test site. Now, I could be wrong. This may very well be the beginning of those early protests that we hear about. Yes, I think this was the first one. I think you’re right. And from the reaction we got when we went to Las Vegas, I mean there was a lot of interest in the group. Really. Within Las Vegas? Yes. By that I mean the press gave us much more attention than they certainly would now. And this term Atomlopers was invented by the newspapers. Do you know where that had come from? UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 16 Because the project people were being very public about what they were going to do, trying to get attention actually, they had visited lots of the churches trying to get church support, and the newspapers and anyone else who would listen, to tell them that they were going to have a group of people that would nonviolently enter the test site on the day of August 6th, which was also a day in which they were scheduling an atmospheric nuclear test [ Stokes, actually shot August 7, 1957] which, as I look back on it now, you have to wonder what the government— It was really astonishing. That’s something. I had no idea. But I suppose I should know that. I can look up to see what test that was. But that’s interesting. I hadn’t thought about that. Yes. So the planners had that in mind, that they would do this civil disobedience act on the day of the test, and basically say that we’re willing to give our lives to protest this because it’s so [ 00: 40: 00] important to us, and linking it to Hiroshima because that was just twelve years after. So that was the plan. And as I read from the newspaper clippings, I wouldn’t have remembered this but there were eleven people who actually committed civil disobedience. Did you? No. I was the secretary. I was busy with the mimeograph machine. And I think there were about twenty of us in addition, so I suspect there were about thirty people involved. How long did you spend planning this, because you mentioned that you went to New York. Yes, and among pacifist circles they put out news about this and raised money and I was of course the person that sent out the letters and collected the checks. And they had strategy meetings I remember sitting in on. I can’t remember the details of them, but I know that they talked about the symbolism and how this might catch the attention of the press. And I remember, this stuck in my mind even then, I remember one of the leaders saying, Now we have to UNLV Nevada Test Site Oral History Project 17 understand that if Marilyn Monroe breaks her ankle, there won’t be anything in the papers about this. And that is true. But you know as I look back on that now, I’m just so struck with how different it was then than later. Now, protests are just so common and every- day, and it was so different then. It was so sort of shocking to people. I remember my best friends said, You shouldn’t do this. You shouldn’t work for this group. It will ruin your career. Because there was something about a very public protest really opposing the government. That was just shocking. Sure. Absolutely. Did your parents, your family, know that you were involved in these sorts of things at this point? They did. I told them and they didn’t raise a fuss. They were supportive? Yes, I suppose you’d say they were supportive. We didn’t talk a lot about that kind of thing but they certainly never criticized it. And I do remember when we were driving from New York to Las Vegas, we came via Colorado and went up to Estes Park and spent a few hours at our cabin, and my mother even whipped up lunch, which was rare for her. And my father was very impressed with Lawrence Scott and the other people that were with us. So that was definitely supportive. That’s pretty neat. That’s quite a drive f